Your people

The sun sets bringing in the darkness
But the moon and stars bring their own kind of brightness
The stars, they spread out across the night sky
Twinkling in earnest to light the path that gets you by
The moon shining down from its perch up above
Bathing the world in its own kind of love
Life is the same with the good times and bad
Pitching you into variations of sad
But when things get difficult and the times get tough
Your people will be there to get you through the rough
They will steady your stride each time you stumble
And be there for you when your worlds in a rumble
So find your own pinpoints of light
And when you do, hold on to them tight
They will get you through the toughest of times
And be there for you when everyone shies
They will stand by your side and be the shoulders to cry on
Your crutch in those times for you to rely on
Those people of yours will keep you strong
But that doesn't mean they will do no wrong
Remember the times they stood by your side
When the darkness was raging and till it subsides.

Conflicted

Sitting on the shore
While the waves crashed in
She contemplated submerging and just giving in
Was she a bit broken?
Was she a bit scarred?
Where did she fit in?
What had left her so jarred?
She had too many scars right now
She knew why each one was caused and how
She had too many cracks right now
One touch would leave her shattered and lost
A bit too fragile given the circumstances
Some of you'll driving her to take the wrong stances
Each decision taken she second guessed
To protect herself from feeling bereft
She tried to hold on to her own sanity
To get through each one of her responsibilites
One step, two step, three step, four
What was it that she was walking down for?
Checking each off to get through her day
But what was all of this for anyway?
She looked to the skies for some resolution
Though she didn't think she would get any solution
Where was the one who could be her strong hold?
Just someone in whose arms she could fold
Nobody was there to be the person she needed
Your actions ensured your advice anymore, wouldn't be heeded
She wished to go back to the root of each problem
To have a do-over so that she could solve them
To take that poison right out of your hands
To not agree as you tried to advance
To not be dependent on your kind words
Cause they would be leaked and never reserved
To be a bit stronger in the quiet loneliness
To be a bit tougher in the empty absoluteness
But she didn't know the path to reach there yet
She might be broken for now
She might be a bit too scared.

Drown out the noise...

I turn up the noise as loud as it can go
To drown out the thoughts, leaving me with pain and sorrow
I try not to think and fill up the gaps
I try and relinquish myself of these sinking traps
It hurts to think of all of the messes
I wish I could forget all of my stresses
I want to get rid of the complications
Some of them of my own creation
I try to get lost, move from one to another
But they keep on coming, one after the other
They creep up on me in my idle times and leave me aching on the inside
It's not easy anymore to take things in my stride
So how do I get rid of these feelings
Close off myself so I'm not sent reeling
Banish those sources causing my plight
Can I then focus on myself to see the daylight?
So many questions left unresolved
The actions of others leaving me devolved
I remove the emotions in anger and frustration
But they come back to haunt me in my times of relaxation.

From Afar...

From afar I watch the changes in you
From afar I see you accepting defeat
I hate every minute of what you are going through
You don't deserve what fate has brought  you
From afar I see your spirit cracking
From afar I watch your body contracting
Your smile now a sight for sore eyes
I feel you want to break all of your ties
I see you shrink into a shell
My mind begging for you to get well
It pains me to see you losing your hope
I can't figure out how we can all cope
From afar I watch you try to stay in control
From afar I see the fight taking its toll
"It's not fair!" I scream in complete silence
And sometimes all I can feel is fear and violence
I want to fill your life with a light
I want you to believe a miracle is in sight
But sometimes, as I watch from afar
I can feel your wounds leaving a scar
A scar on my thoughts to see this all through
I begin to doubt if we can start each day anew
A numbness spreads across my mind
As I struggle for a solution to find
My positivity wanes from time to time
But No! I refuse to give up my hope
I refuse to believe that we all can't cope
From afar I may see your spirit cracking
But I'll be standing there to put back whats lacking
From afar I may watch you go into your shell
But I'll draw you out, I won't let us fail
From afar I may see the fight taking its toll
But I'll be standing behind you, to keep the sword in your hold.

Betrayal

Rush up to the room and slam the door tight
I don't want to talk and I don't want to fight
You beg me to listen, to give you a chance
For what? To once more start the betrayal dance?
I don't want to see and I don't want to listen
To all of your lies that will make my cheeks glisten
I felt my world tilt right on its edge
With all of the feelings that now you have dredged
I drown out the falsehoods and drown out the white noise
Wipe out the memories of all our little joys
I hear you knocking, this time a bit softer
I guess you're accepting that these wounds might fester
You whisper for me to just listen once more
To your messed up excuses that will just leave me sore
So I close my eyes and slide down to the floor
Shaking my head leaning against the door
Leave me alone! to my own misery
Don't make me remember all of our history
I can't forget it this time and I can't forgive it again
Your treachery today has left me in pain
A deep shaky breath, a sigh I let out
I dry off my tears and tell you to get out
Get out of my life and take your vices with you
Get out so I don't have to deal with what's untrue
And as you reach out, I take a step back
You think you can convince me and get things back on track
You say what you've said a million times before
Honestly now I can't trust you anymore
This time will be different or so you shall say
Do you think those words will keep my doubts away?
Oh! How I wish to truly believe you
How I wish I couldn't see right through you
So I harden my eyes and close off my heart
To tell you to leave and stay forever apart.

Somewhere along the way

Somewhere along the way
We lose our paths to greatness
Somewhere along the way
We get lost among all the craziness
Somewhere along the way
You hear the whisper of wrongness
Somewhere along the way
You give in to your own weakness
Oh! how we fall when we don't fight back
Those misleading words
Setting us on misleading tracks
Your virtues and ideals take a backseat
Going with the flow
So that the present seems like a sweet treat
I can't believe how times have changed
How importance is given to things of a short range
How intoxication has replaced conversation
How we all seem to try and run from our situations
There isn't much that can be done
But introspection is certainly one
One to help you see the truth of your actions
One to save you from negative repercussions
One to keep you true to yourself
One to ensure the greatness doesn't die within yourself.

She blinked...

She felt them well
She blinked, they dried
And she continued on
So no one could see her cry
But did they see right through her
Could they tell the mess that was wrought
Could they tell she was pretending
Pretending to be someone she was not
She felt like she was losing herself
She felt that all her hope was lost
But still she blinked and hitched a smile
To melt the frost around her heart
A day would pass and onto the next she'd go
One after another they went by so fast
She tried to sort through the confused mess
She tried to fight through all of these tests
How could she set out on her goals
When her will to fight was on a deadly slope
But try she would and try she did
To retain that hope even while it faded.

Reclaim...

Give me the reason
Give me the words
Spark inside me thoughts unheard
My feelings are brazen
Things have gotten blurred
I want to light up
And defeat all that I feared
I want to reclaim the innocence of self
I want to reclaim the joy that I felt
On the littlest of things, the childish wonder
I want all of that back but things don't get easier
Shackles ensnare and try to reproach me
When will they understand that the world can't encroach me
Imagination and daring is all that is needed
To be right there with those who've succeeded
I want the feeling of being unstoppable
To liberate myself of the thought, 'it's not possible'
When did I loose my spirited self
When did I let my dreams sit on a shelf
I want to reclaim my hope once more
I want to reclaim those dreams and make sure
Make sure I can believe once again
That trying and trying is never in vain.

The Cost of Feeling

I felt a way that made me wonder
I felt a way I've never before
You told me things that made me ponder
Whether what I thought was just a lore
A roller coaster of my emotions
My mind was thrown into chaos
I questioned each of my notions
Truth be told I was at a loss
A loss for what is real and true
Second guessing my every thought
I didn't know what would get me through
It was difficult for me to accept what reality had brought
A little bit of trust was lost
A little bit of me as well
The way I felt was at a cost
 I should have looked before I fell
A mistake I made in believing
That the outer shell was you pretending
The facts laid out were truly relieving
And now I know the truth of feeling.