Drown out the noise...

I turn up the noise as loud as it can go
To drown out the thoughts, leaving me with pain and sorrow
I try not to think and fill up the gaps
I try and relinquish myself of these sinking traps
It hurts to think of all of the messes
I wish I could forget all of my stresses
I want to get rid of the complications
Some of them of my own creation
I try to get lost, move from one to another
But they keep on coming, one after the other
They creep up on me in my idle times and leave me aching on the inside
It's not easy anymore to take things in my stride
So how do I get rid of these feelings
Close off myself so I'm not sent reeling
Banish those sources causing my plight
Can I then focus on myself to see the daylight?
So many questions left unresolved
The actions of others leaving me devolved
I remove the emotions in anger and frustration
But they come back to haunt me in my times of relaxation.