Ablaze

She saw fire in the skies,
Blazing hot, orange vastness.

She felt the heat in her bones,

As she walked that empty road,

Slowly approaching the end of the line,

Ready to run through it and prevail.

Because she knew she would fight,

Right up until the end.

No matter all the voices she heard,

Telling her she couldn't, 

Telling her she'd fail.

She banished those thoughts,

Those fearful lies,

Being fed to her by the silence inside her head,

Being fed to her by the unseen and the unnamed.

She focused instead on her beating heart,

The pieces of her that made her whole,

The sounds of encouragement of those who loved her,

The vitality and strength coursing through her blood,

Each day, every day,

And so she screamed in defiance,

At all that was holding her back,

And sprinted head on,

Straight into the flames!

 

Pockets of Time

Do you feel your moment...

Your present, your now, your current?

Do you believe in your strength...

Your values, your principles, your intent?

Do you see the world full of opportunity...

Partaking in the small joys of your life's continuity?

The hidden beat of a birds soft chirping, 

The gracious movement of a leaf's unfurling,

The innocence of a child's first giggle,

The happiness of a mother's first snuggle.

Do you pause to hold on to these pockets of time...    

Your feelings, your hopes, your dreams, your climb?  

Do you keep that piece of you intact...

Your peace, your truth, your love's impact?

Do you hold on to your purpose in life...

To keep you together through your lows and highs?

The moments you cherish and keep close to your heart,

The ones with those you never want to part,

Focus on them in your here and now,

And make your mark with what life endows.

The Widow

The lights went out 

A plate shattered

A choking guzzling sound was heard

A thud as something hit the table

Just a matter of seconds changed her story

As the room was bathed in light once more 

His dropped down head as if asleep

Startled the entire dinner party

Wide eyes met each other 

Hers round and shocked the most

She stifled a scream and reached for the phone 

Shaking hands and shaking voice

The whispers around her felt from afar

The death reported, they waited in silence

The doctor would have to examine him now

She sat completely still, the arms around her unfelt

He was gone, her life's companion

Where would her fate take her now

The next few hours felt like a whirlwind

A heart attack, the doctor declared

Sighs and laments filled the room

Oh! So sudden, what will the poor widow do?

The maid ushered the guests out 

Each one consoling her in dismay

It will be fine, it will be alright

Don't worry they said, a better place he'll find

She nodded to each and stared at the floor

The doors closed, the body at the morgue

Funeral arrangements would be made tomorrow

Up the stairs she went alone

And began to change to turn in for the night

As she stared at herself in the mirror

She finally allowed herself to relax

With steel in her eyes she touched each mark 

The blue bruises on her didn't hurt as much

The knot in her stomach now unwound

Good thing she chose poison and not a gun

The blood spatter would've been a nightmare to clean up.

I miss you

I miss you a little bit more each day
And wish I'd have had more time with you to stay
I miss your smile and the light in your eyes
I miss the little love you's and good-nights
I miss being called your angel and sweetheart
I miss the sound of your laugh which would always make me start
I miss you driving me everywhere
And all of the wisdom that you used to share
I miss the little things that you would do
To ensure your little girl was happy through and through
I miss standing on your feet and dancing around
And the piggyback rides all across the ground
I miss holding your hand which always engulfed mine
And looking into your brown eyes with all the laugh lines
But most of all I miss your unconditional love
It made me feel special like I was your treasure trove
There's a space in my heart which feels empty now
And time and again I have to fill it with happy thoughts of you somehow
I tell myself to be strong the way you would have wanted
But your loss is something that can't be easily casted
I love you Dad and I always will
I'll miss you each day that I'll live.

Your people

The sun sets bringing in the darkness
But the moon and stars bring their own kind of brightness
The stars, they spread out across the night sky
Twinkling in earnest to light the path that gets you by
The moon shining down from its perch up above
Bathing the world in its own kind of love
Life is the same with the good times and bad
Pitching you into variations of sad
But when things get difficult and the times get tough
Your people will be there to get you through the rough
They will steady your stride each time you stumble
And be there for you when your worlds in a rumble
So find your own pinpoints of light
And when you do, hold on to them tight
They will get you through the toughest of times
And be there for you when everyone shies
They will stand by your side and be the shoulders to cry on
Your crutch in those times for you to rely on
Those people of yours will keep you strong
But that doesn't mean they will do no wrong
Remember the times they stood by your side
When the darkness was raging and till it subsides.

Conflicted

Sitting on the shore
While the waves crashed in
She contemplated submerging and just giving in
Was she a bit broken?
Was she a bit scarred?
Where did she fit in?
What had left her so jarred?
She had too many scars right now
She knew why each one was caused and how
She had too many cracks right now
One touch would leave her shattered and lost
A bit too fragile given the circumstances
Some of you'll driving her to take the wrong stances
Each decision taken she second guessed
To protect herself from feeling bereft
She tried to hold on to her own sanity
To get through each one of her responsibilites
One step, two step, three step, four
What was it that she was walking down for?
Checking each off to get through her day
But what was all of this for anyway?
She looked to the skies for some resolution
Though she didn't think she would get any solution
Where was the one who could be her strong hold?
Just someone in whose arms she could fold
Nobody was there to be the person she needed
Your actions ensured your advice anymore, wouldn't be heeded
She wished to go back to the root of each problem
To have a do-over so that she could solve them
To take that poison right out of your hands
To not agree as you tried to advance
To not be dependent on your kind words
Cause they would be leaked and never reserved
To be a bit stronger in the quiet loneliness
To be a bit tougher in the empty absoluteness
But she didn't know the path to reach there yet
She might be broken for now
She might be a bit too scared.

Drown out the noise...

I turn up the noise as loud as it can go
To drown out the thoughts, leaving me with pain and sorrow
I try not to think and fill up the gaps
I try and relinquish myself of these sinking traps
It hurts to think of all of the messes
I wish I could forget all of my stresses
I want to get rid of the complications
Some of them of my own creation
I try to get lost, move from one to another
But they keep on coming, one after the other
They creep up on me in my idle times and leave me aching on the inside
It's not easy anymore to take things in my stride
So how do I get rid of these feelings
Close off myself so I'm not sent reeling
Banish those sources causing my plight
Can I then focus on myself to see the daylight?
So many questions left unresolved
The actions of others leaving me devolved
I remove the emotions in anger and frustration
But they come back to haunt me in my times of relaxation.