From Afar...

From afar I watch the changes in you
From afar I see you accepting defeat
I hate every minute of what you are going through
You don't deserve what fate has brought  you
From afar I see your spirit cracking
From afar I watch your body contracting
Your smile now a sight for sore eyes
I feel you want to break all of your ties
I see you shrink into a shell
My mind begging for you to get well
It pains me to see you losing your hope
I can't figure out how we can all cope
From afar I watch you try to stay in control
From afar I see the fight taking its toll
"It's not fair!" I scream in complete silence
And sometimes all I can feel is fear and violence
I want to fill your life with a light
I want you to believe a miracle is in sight
But sometimes, as I watch from afar
I can feel your wounds leaving a scar
A scar on my thoughts to see this all through
I begin to doubt if we can start each day anew
A numbness spreads across my mind
As I struggle for a solution to find
My positivity wanes from time to time
But No! I refuse to give up my hope
I refuse to believe that we all can't cope
From afar I may see your spirit cracking
But I'll be standing there to put back whats lacking
From afar I may watch you go into your shell
But I'll draw you out, I won't let us fail
From afar I may see the fight taking its toll
But I'll be standing behind you, to keep the sword in your hold.

Betrayal

Rush up to the room and slam the door tight
I don't want to talk and I don't want to fight
You beg me to listen, to give you a chance
For what? To once more start the betrayal dance?
I don't want to see and I don't want to listen
To all of your lies that will make my cheeks glisten
I felt my world tilt right on its edge
With all of the feelings that now you have dredged
I drown out the falsehoods and drown out the white noise
Wipe out the memories of all our little joys
I hear you knocking, this time a bit softer
I guess you're accepting that these wounds might fester
You whisper for me to just listen once more
To your messed up excuses that will just leave me sore
So I close my eyes and slide down to the floor
Shaking my head leaning against the door
Leave me alone! to my own misery
Don't make me remember all of our history
I can't forget it this time and I can't forgive it again
Your treachery today has left me in pain
A deep shaky breath, a sigh I let out
I dry off my tears and tell you to get out
Get out of my life and take your vices with you
Get out so I don't have to deal with what's untrue
And as you reach out, I take a step back
You think you can convince me and get things back on track
You say what you've said a million times before
Honestly now I can't trust you anymore
This time will be different or so you shall say
Do you think those words will keep my doubts away?
Oh! How I wish to truly believe you
How I wish I couldn't see right through you
So I harden my eyes and close off my heart
To tell you to leave and stay forever apart.