She blinked...

She felt them well
She blinked, they dried
And she continued on
So no one could see her cry
But did they see right through her
Could they tell the mess that was wrought
Could they tell she was pretending
Pretending to be someone she was not
She felt like she was losing herself
She felt that all her hope was lost
But still she blinked and hitched a smile
To melt the frost around her heart
A day would pass and onto the next she'd go
One after another they went by so fast
She tried to sort through the confused mess
She tried to fight through all of these tests
How could she set out on her goals
When her will to fight was on a deadly slope
But try she would and try she did
To retain that hope even while it faded.

Reclaim...

Give me the reason
Give me the words
Spark inside me thoughts unheard
My feelings are brazen
Things have gotten blurred
I want to light up
And defeat all that I feared
I want to reclaim the innocence of self
I want to reclaim the joy that I felt
On the littlest of things, the childish wonder
I want all of that back but things don't get easier
Shackles ensnare and try to reproach me
When will they understand that the world can't encroach me
Imagination and daring is all that is needed
To be right there with those who've succeeded
I want the feeling of being unstoppable
To liberate myself of the thought, 'it's not possible'
When did I loose my spirited self
When did I let my dreams sit on a shelf
I want to reclaim my hope once more
I want to reclaim those dreams and make sure
Make sure I can believe once again
That trying and trying is never in vain.

The Cost of Feeling

I felt a way that made me wonder
I felt a way I've never before
You told me things that made me ponder
Whether what I thought was just a lore
A roller coaster of my emotions
My mind was thrown into chaos
I questioned each of my notions
Truth be told I was at a loss
A loss for what is real and true
Second guessing my every thought
I didn't know what would get me through
It was difficult for me to accept what reality had brought
A little bit of trust was lost
A little bit of me as well
The way I felt was at a cost
 I should have looked before I fell
A mistake I made in believing
That the outer shell was you pretending
The facts laid out were truly relieving
And now I know the truth of feeling.